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Ah, guys. I've done the thing. The thing where I've left it too long between blog posts and I've forgotten how to type. Is this right? Am I doing okay? Is this how things are still done online? Honestly, my brain has been a hot mess recently, and I'm sure if I got a lobotomy there would be actual steam pouring out of my head.
I'm writing this on a chilled Wednesday night (read: started writing, let's see when I actually finish it) trying to think where best to start to catch you all up. So, grab a brew, enjoy some photos I took, like, a century ago and we can get back up to date.
Work has been, something, recently. Whilst I would love to go into full detail about everything that's gone on, I can't for obvious reasons. But let me tell you, it's not been the one. There was a two to three-week period where we all were at risk of losing our jobs and having to relocate patients. But as of now, my job is safe. It caused a lot of turmoil and thrown some spanners in the works, so I will say I'm definitely not totally settled, as there were concerns about Dan's job too. However, we are both in a comparatively better place than only a few weeks ago. Side note: I just got rejected for another job, which seems to be a frustrating pattern. Growing up and carving a career path can be mentally exhausting.
In the time that I've not been blogging, I decided to do some ~tidying~. I went back through all old blog posts, added keywords, changed the metadata. Basically, a whole load of stuff Yoast tells you to do. It was incredibly satisfying. However, amid doing this, I stumbled across some, well, troubling stuff. In my head, I've always been pretty aware of the world around me, avoided using derogatory language etc etc. Back in 2011, when I very first started this blog, turns out I really wasn't. Ignoring my general disdain for capital letters, I said some stuff that made me horrified. I was genuinely appalled. So, I urge you all to go back into the depths of your own blogs and check out some early content. I'm very pleased to say I'm much more aware than I was, so in a way, I'm glad to have seen my own personal growth, but also to change the old content which had words I'd never use now.
I've also discovered Pinterest, which yes, I realised I'm very late to the party with. Truly, I just never understood it, but since I read the phrase that "it's like a search engine, but for images", it began to make a whole lot more sense. I've been pinning tons recently, especially since we know we've got the holding fee down on the house. I'm curating home boards with things I know we could never afford. A girl can dream. It's also so much more satisfying watching your monthly unique viewers go up, which compared to Instagram is the true blessing.
And speaking of this, excellent segway if I do say so myself, I have been struggling with social media a whole lot recently. I've found it difficult to deal with the pressure to be online. Like, as a blogger, I want to be online as much as possible, because funnily enough, being online often equals views. You need that healthy mix of scheduled and organic posts going on, but I just haven't had the mental capacity to do it. Some nights there has just been nothing, and it would definitely be a faux pas to be tweeting in the office. In reference to the title of this post, there's just too much to keep up with. So, to go through all the social media profiles, I must post on Instagram at least once a day, along with comment on other people's posts and update stories to make sure there is a better chance of interaction. Twitter, I need to schedule tweets, along with making witty quips to update you all on my life and be ~relatable~. Pinterest, I should be active at least 20 minutes a day to get enough views. Oh, and that doesn't include actually writing blog posts and taking pictures and updating hashtag lists to make sure that content is being viewed by others. The list is just endless.
Balance is key, and I've wholly lost that. Blogging is a whole different ball game, and I've been moaning about this since forever, but sometimes it's just impossible to keep up. I've been on burnout in so many ways. I always end this by saying "and I'm going to put these feelings to one side!!" but I never truly do. I'm salty, and that's been an insightful development. Where I need to remind myself, is that this isn't my full-time job. I can't be expected to keep with the big wigs, not that won't keep me from trying.
It's now Sunday. I think I've finally finished where I'm going with this. This blog has always been where I pen my thoughts. So, this is where I'm at right now. So, update me. what's been going on for you?